Well I had a blog my first year in College because we had to. Let's just say I didn't keep up with it very well. But I didn't care about anything that I talked about then...cause I had to talk about specific school stuff. What I'm trying to say is this should be a better attempt because I can talk about what I want to. Key word should. Well I'm going to school, working, and trying to figure out who I am. Life is crazy. I returned home from a Mission to Halifax Canada in June and sometimes I still feel like I'm adjusting. Today I've been struggling with personality things that I want to change but can't. You see I have this internal desire to stay close with all my friends...but it's harder than it seems sometimes cause not everyone feels the same way. Lately I've felt like I really don't have anyone that I can just call up and go do something. It's hard growing up. I keep thinking that it's just me and I need to change so that I will be more likable or I need to not be so needy cause I think I can be overwhelming. So I decided that I would try that. I want to be that friend I would like to have. Not the one that won't stop calling or txt-ing or facebook stalking or comes to your house and you want them to leave but are too nice to say get out of my house your bugging me. I want to be someone that people can come to for advice. That people go out of their way to say Hi or I was thinking about you. Then on the opposite side I feel like I'm one of a kind, whose willing to go the extra mile and show a close friend how much their friendship means to me but I can't find someone to reciprocate. Who knows. These were just the thoughts going through my head right now. I guess it's not the opening I had in mind. I actually set up this account 3 weeks ago but haven't thought of what to say in the first post, so although this is not what I had in Mind, it'll have to work. Well of to bed school comes early.