So today is my little sisters birthday. She has gotten so old. She is one of my bestest friends. I love spending time with her. I am so lucky to have such a great relationship with my family. My brothers would do anything for me and I hope they know I would for them too. They constantly want to have family time playing games or just doing things together. I love Andrew and Sam so much! They are some of my other bestest friends...along with my mom and dad. I love getting random phone calls from my mom and dad, just to tell me they were thinking about me or to remind me how much they love me!
Tonight my daddy called me just to check on me. I am such a daddy's girl. Sometimes I forget to tell them (my family) how much they mean to me. The truth is I would be so much more lost in this crazy world without them. Yes we are crazy and so extreme when we are together, but I know they love me and they accept me for me...something I have had a hard time realizing.
Sometimes I find it so hard to see, the good in me. I get so down on myself. I want those thoughts and feelings to go away. I know that I can work to understand why I have them and what I can do to not let those feelings and thoughts direct who I truly am. They are a choice and I need to choose to realize that I am a pretty neat person. Even though I'm not dating or married or a mother yet, I will be someday. Even if I'm not the thinnest person in the....room, I am beautiful the way I am. Even if I can't consistently keep my house clean, I am a good-caring teacher and am there for my students.
I am so lucky to be supported my so many wonderful people. I love to laugh and sometimes I go to far. I hope that those around me know how much I truly love them.
I have had a rough weekend, but I think that I am ready for a new day, a new week of school, and for a new outlook on life.