So today I got to have lunch with one of the
most amazing ladies I know. I got to sit there and just talk to her, something I've wanted to do for a long time. I pretty much loved it and truly I didn't want it to end. I was nervous, for dumb reasons. While I drove down to meet her, my stomach was a bundle of nerves...with each exit I got closer to Salt Lake, the tangled stressors in my tummy got more wound up. I get so worried about what people think about me...But it was all for naught. I haven't laughed so much in a long time, I'm sure the people at Zupas thought we were crazy!!! Sometimes serious, sometimes laughter, sometimes uncomfortable, sometimes obscene...Family! I am so lucky to be related to this person. I love that I can just talk to her freely and I honestly don't feel like she is judging me (believe me I have lots to be judged for). She see's me as the person I am...even if I am not okay with who that is right now.
This break has been much needed! I have made some changes, things that I think will definitely help my mental well being as well as everything else!
Confession time:
- Sometimes I rush into my apartment just so I don't have to talk to my neighbors...Yep I'm that much of a jerk.
- My car smells like death...the outside. I'm burning something under the hood.
- I can't sleep with socks on. If I have socks on I toss and turn until I take them off.
- I am scared of my car breaking down and being attacked by someone. I don't go out anymore after dark. (which is very very weird for me)
- I absolutely love Helena Bonham Carter!
- I have a unnatural addiction to my homemade pistachio ice cream.
- I have tried to quit diet coke....it's just not going to happen!
Sometimes I think that I use this blog as a journal rather than blogging what ever that is...oh well, I guess you don't have to read it right.
I'm sure no one really does read it. That's good.
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